I really have been meaning to write on here for a while now. I've even had this same empty screen up several times with no success in actually typing anything down. Actually, I still don't have much to say. I've just found that it's sometimes better to keep my thoughts to myself.
But anyway, I didn't really write much during September because I was going through a tough time. I was doing a bit of reevaluating on everything, and it really was just a pretty horrible month. Plus it didn't help that I was going through a tough class, I was sick for 2-3 weeks, and I kept losing everything that I owned. But as horrible as it was, it really did help me appreciate the good moments. And there certainly were some of those in there as well.
And this month has also had its ups and downs. I'm so blessed to surround myself with great people, people who truly care about me. I love my family and friends... I love being loved. And you know what, I feel so incredibly sad for people who don't know how wonderful love can be.
And what's incredibly sad is how insecurity can really affect our lives. Sometimes it makes you put others down in order to make you feel a little bit better. Or it makes you overembellish the truth a little bit. Or it can lead to jealousy. Or it ruins entire relationships. Regardless, it really just isn't necessary. I've learned that you can't spend your time with people who have hang ups b/c then... you start feeling the same way. And really, I'm over feeling that way.
Eh... until next time.
